Since Charlie passed away on the 2nd July 2021, I’ve not been myself.

Charlie was my heart. Everytime I looked into his eyes, I felt love and the compelling need to share that with the world. As a consequence, we built a beautiful community via Instagram with an intention to spread more love.

When he deprated my embrace that day at the vets, a part of me left with him and a part of him stayed with me. My grief was unbearable and the pain in my heart struck me down into a place of absolutele sadness. I knew Charlie had to go one day yet I always hoped he would live to see his 13th (he would have been 13 on the 13th November 2021).

The reason I’m writing this post is more of a self-confession and honouring of Charlie. I didn’t realise the extent of what he gave me and how he inspired me to believe in love. Just looking at Charlie would open my eyes to the vital energy love holds and just how important it is to share that in the world.

Charlie’s gift to me was igniting a sense of inner peace among the chaos of my inner and outer world. He had this incredible presence that would always make me smile and bring me back to centre. He was a tribute to love, compassion and trusting in this life.

Now he has passed, it doesn’t mean those gifts have also gone and I feel it’s more about making the effort to keep them alive.

I will always share the Charlie-Spirit with the world and I know Leo will carry on his light despite the huge loss we feel

Grief isn’t mine alone. We all have an element of grief within us that if not accepted, can become very painful. It’s so important to allow yourself to grieve; to be angry, sad, frustrated and scared. No one can stop you from feeling what you feel – we are feeling beings! This is why I was never afraid of the pain I felt when Charlie passed away. I accepted it fully and knew in my heart that in time his memory would become a pillar of strength within me.

I am extremely fortunate to have experienced such a special soul in this lifetime and only hope Charlie-boy is still looking at us all with his fierce Scottie-spirit and adoring eyes.